Not For Bread, But For Roses

今天和朋友聊天。突然带回一种似曾相识的怀念感。
朋友说他在看以前写的blogs，我说： 让我也瞅瞅呗。
2007年的blog。几乎每天像是写日记一样表达着自己的情绪。
虽然没有见证过每一片里写的故事，但却像一部电视剧在眼前播放着，脚本是别人的，导演却是自己。
突然怀念起以前的时光，那些爱恨分明又满不在乎却其实彻头彻尾在乎的日子。那种纠结很是彻底。
某天起来突然看见镜子里的自己，恨的要命，第二天醒来时又突然觉得自己是个啥，喜爱的要命。
没事和自己过不去，藏在家里怨天怨地的和谁都过不去地写着blog.又或是碰到什么开心事就屁颠屁颠地打开电脑飞快记录自己的喜悦，好像大家都等着分享似的。
学校里三三两两聚在一起聊八卦，评头论足的好像少说了就没了自我价值似的。多纯真啊。

现在想来，好是羡慕。多激荡啊，多放肆啊。

生活越来越没意思，觉得天天都在瞎起劲但缺乏乐趣。忙与不忙都觉得没啥体现价值的。有钱就是真正的价值但也没爬分的冲动。混呗混呗。不都是机器人么～ classic conformity!
啥时弄个游行什么的 against conformity 让我再激荡激荡呗。

（难得有个反复情绪，特此记录一笔，好让我以后回顾回顾再反复几回）

nothing new is called content.
Idle life is called nice life.
frz all have ups and downs, and mostly suffer downs.
some frz really quiet that you only can keep update with their blogs, sarky
Idle life, has sunshine here and some frz u can always reach, should be content.
my life, idle, content and need good luck and blessings, please..

春节在家休息一如既往的无聊。想找些朋友聊聊天什么的。大家都各自忙着生活，也不好意思打扰。在家整天个敲打键盘。偶尔跪在沙发上看看电视，算是新年给大家拜拜年。想想无聊的日子也差不多到头了。挤地铁的日子又要到。人民广场又要名副其实得人挤人了。觉得烦？没有。。不烦？也没有。没了纠结最纠结。真的发现自己长大了。没了轻狂多了内心翻腾的疯狂，没了冲动开始憧憬激动的感觉。内心平的一塌糊涂。偶尔想要挣扎挣扎。但惰性太强强暴了所有感性。新年快乐只能先从心念快乐开始咯。
偶尔听到一句台词：自由自由就是找到自己活着的理由。
呵呵。。找理由一刚。。
哼哼“找朋友”

2009! FINALLY!!
For Friends: so amazing that we all changed a lot and feel so lucky that we can grow together, no matter happiness or sadness we share together and move on together.
For Family: healthy and happy
For Work: have a big step forward which is cheering and encouraging. Ask for more.
For all : cherish the present and look forward to better tomorrow. God's plan!

it's been a long time tht i hadn't updated my spaces. anyway.checked frz blogs everyday.happiness/sadness/emotions blah blah. pretty good.i used to think that life would be exciting anyway if you wanna it be like that. but well..innocent idea.Talking with mom recently about how interesting the feeling is when seeing frz (including me) growing up having social life compared to school life..so incredible you know.never thought about we girls can have a life like that and time goes by so fast...think about it..sooner or maybe in the near future..we will holding our partner's hands and maybe having babies.well social life plus family routine chore.omg.hahah..life is all about it. and maybe stablity and a little bit life seasoning is all about the fun of life.peace